Mute

Unplayed pianos are often by a window
In a room where nobody loved goes
She sits alone with her silent song
Somebody bring her home

Unplayed piano, still holds a tune
Lock on the lid, In a stale, stale room
Maybe it's not that easy or maybe it's not that hard
Maybe they could release me let the people decide


I like my headphones, because my music sounds good on it. I like my phone, because it plays good music. I like iTunes, because it's so easy to manage my music on it. I like music, period. Today I was thinking, the last gig we played. More than a year ago. 1000 hyped people in the crowd. AH, the good days . I'm yet to go for a gig in kl. Pwease. Still like this video, though a little blurry. Kev,Kings, Pj(in his short hair), and I, Muse cover.

Give me the green lights

I've not blogged in ages. My phone is sick, it's in the hospital now. Get well soon, I need to take pictures. :(

So I dont have the pictures I took. Great. And It's not that events have not been happening since, A machine stole 600 bucks from me, I met new people, I've been going out, Tried new stuff bla bla bla...

I'm in no mood to blog. I look like a zombie now. "No more modelling for you", says Vanessa. A very unshaven zombie. Thank you A Levels. Oh, something ironic, Regina taught me the Calvin's Cycle yesterday. I find it funny. A good soul, she is, gave me my b'day present too. =) I need a pocket full of sunshine. Thank goodness, it's Christmas. I heard you are coming, I hope it's true.

I miss the sound of your voice,
The loudest thing in my head
And I ache to remember
All the violent, sweet, perfect words that you said

Droplets

Ok last time I blogged was forever. I’m back in Malacca, it’s the semester holidays. Things that happened since last post, CF BBQ, turned out good! 90 people came, I’m glad. David made this really awesome clip. I think he took a million hours on it. So much food, until people had to take back home….. Beyond the joy of BBQ, reality check, it was also Regina’s farewell. Seriously, why’d you have to be so old?

After BBQ was sleepover. I watched “Over Her Dead Body”, storyline kinda sucks. Haha. Oh and it was so cold, I slept under that huge table in the Student Services Unit. A couple of months ago, at a sleepover, Chip shared his sleeping bag with me, so I wouldn’t have to sleep on the cold hard floor, this time I shared my pillow. (Oh btw, Chip, sometimes, I drool on my pillow)

The Scott Villans also went out for dinner, but some of us couldn’t make it. And International Night was good too. Adam sang Vindicated, acoustic. Pj and I played for Sheng, he sang a Chinese song, its called Prayer. Yes, Cj played a Chinese song. =)

Seriously dude..whats up?

Sheng on the left. Us playing on International Night.



These needles just add to the scare!

There was this blood donation drive in college, beyond the stress, there was this satisfaction in all of us who donated. Glad I had my friends there with me, Regina and Alithea calming me, and David, as gay as it was, I had his hand to hold. Oh and Regina tried calming me by putting on some music from phone. HAHA.

The video, from the start to the finish, at the blood drive. I was so freaked out! Needle phobia..

Turns out, I wasn't the only one scared...Jon Chew here had to be controlled.

There’s a flea infestation in college, and I’m happy to say I’ve not gotten a single bite. I stumbled upon this old playlist on my I tunes and I’ve once again fallen in love with Coldplay. Reminds me of those days in Form 4, where fat me was problem free, stress free and was just chilling. Not complaining where I am now.

Sweet sweet satisfaction ;)



Burning Desire

Ignited Fire’s burning me,
I feel the warmth in my soul

I know Your near
Cause I’m Burning with desire


The world is screaming Your
Name
They know all darkness will fall
They stand to testify
Your word is the POWER

You set the fire burning
You set the nations free
You keep us running faster
Burning with Desire

Set the Nations Free
Set the World on Fire
Keep them Burning up, for You

Let the darkness fade
Jesus Christ, You Reign

written by my brother, Nelson Ng.

Stupid kipas...

You know how sometimes some of us can be really dumb....well this goes beyond just plain dumb, yours truly did something really really klutzy that even Caryn, Queen of Klutziness would think it's klutzy. This what happened.....

Mom!! Have you seen my retainers, i've misplaced it and have been looking for it for the past hour. It's no where at home! It's already 2.45 and I'm suppose to be in the bus station in half an hour! Then my ma goes like "Look for it slowly, don't panic It's gotta be around here somewhere" to calm my nerves. I still go on a frenzy toppling things to find those invisible retainers...then clock strikes 3! Oh well, gotta abandon search and try looking for it when I come back next week. So I march over to the dry kitchen area. My shirt was left to hang on a chair. Picked the shirt...and put it on like any person would (Now you try picturing putting on your shirt) so my hands were up in the air.....when suddenly.....TANG!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! The ceiling fan has stopped spinning....cause my right hand got in the way!! The pain was another level. I didn't dare look at my hand....but a few seconds later I did...half expecting to not see a couple of fingers.....to my relief I count still count to 5 on that hand. Still blood was gushing and I couldnt move my Index. I was scared to death. What if the index is broken and never moves again? Mom came to my rescue....bro was shouting at me for being so clumsy. Can't blame him, I've been living in that house for 10 years.....I should know how far I can stretch by now. But all turned out well, besides the stinging..I can move my fingers and I'm thankful for that.

So that's the story of how klutzy I've been. Lesson learned....I'll never stretch in that part of the house ever. And I've now got a phobia of fans. Weird.

Cj's first.

This week....Cj watched his first Tamil movie in the cinema with no sub-titles. Nothing to be proud of though cause I had a translator next to me. Translating every sentence, which annoyed everyone else in the cinema. Also this week....I met a new friend, Rumen. He's been living in Scotts to but always a guy i just smiled to. But a couple of days ago, I actually spoke to him. Which gets me to thinking.......I've gotta get up and meet new people. I'm surrounded by amazing people. Why not get to know as many as possible? I crave Big Apple donuts now. Tonight is International Night in college, and I'll be playing for Shang, a friend from China. Yeah my first chinese song! Oooh...and Alithea showed me the Twilight trailer today. Can't wait to watch that.

Toodles.

Baptism going on here people.




Awesome picture....see at the end of the trail of smoke is a knife...emphasising, Smoking Kills!

Situation

Ikea's meatballs, Lady Alithea's plate.


Back home. Blackie is so quiet. I'm bored. Unit 2 Chem....is so tiring. I dont like. I saw Narnia today. Still very much in love with that show. And the only other person I know who really likes the show is Joseph Ling. This week had dance auditions...Kumaran was impressive. Can't wait for the choreography to finish. Ooh and I ate fungus. Regina and I were having lunch and this is how it went....

CJ:What's this? *gripping the strip of the unknown black strip on the chopstick*
Regina: It's fungus! Try it, its really good. *gives her signature wide smile*
CJ:What!!! Ewww.... (But still shoves it in mouth) It doesn't taste good la.
Regina- Yeah actually it doesn't, but the texture is nice. :)

Which was kinda true. So there i ate my fungus. According to Pj it's pretty common la. But for me, exotic enough. I went to the curve this week and got me Padini's khakis which was on a big sale. Satisfied. 2 more weeks of college! Time is passing so fast.

I think this shop is creative and cool. Though a little lala-fied.

Below the success of every man, there is sometimes a strong women.




Momma watching over her child being naughty.

Can you tell me how we got into this situation? I can't seem to get silly you out of my mind.



Till next time then!! :)

Going back...

The apartment before I cleaned it.

Now it's clean! Ok fine,...clean enough FOR ME.


Updating bloggie now cause Alithea asked me to 5 minutes ago... last weekend was back in Malacca and I've finally finally gone to the Dataran Pahlawan GSC cinema!!!! yeah!! 5 months after it's opening I went still....I went!! Yesh, it is as huge as everyone says it is... but it was pretty empty la.

The 2 of us went there for a movie, ended up watching Bangkok Dangerous. And..... we sat on a couple's seat!!! but we were so distracting and messy that the couple next to us had to move away. And who is the person I went with..... Tat!!! Haha, yes Tat was my company,.he picked me up from my home which is WAY out of the way. The guy still as skinny as ever....but now with a goatee that makes him look violent. But, he's still as harmless as ever. And he's still very much homophobic....so getting him to sit on the couple's sit with me was a miracle. So besides having a girlfriend this MP's son is very much the same south we all loved.

Can breathe a little now, exams just finished.... but the real deal is in January. Caroling this year,yea! So fun. Guess thats all i have to say in this very gay post. =)

Micheal in MCKL Cf



Tat and I in his ride..



Saw this in a lady's cosmetic shop in Pyramid...haha...Doesn't the name just makes you want to laugh?

Things Happen

Everything’s so blurry
and everyone's so fake
everybody’s empty
and everything is so messed up
preoccupied without you

Kena- TAG!

Kah Yun tagged me a million years ago....and I've fianally got it.(Thanks man)...

::instructions::
Never see the questions before you arrange the names - all mentioned below are TAGGED!

1. Caryn


2. Mel


3. Jinho


4. Pj


5. Regina



1.How did you meet 1?
Last year, She was TRYING to fix a guitar string....in a very entertaining manner

2. On a scale of 1 - 10, how would you rate your friendship with 1?
9

3. How long have you known 4?
Since I was 10.

4. How do you know number 3?
Back when I was in Sabah, small guy, constantly surrounded by girls. Then he invited me to his church. Turned out to be a pastor's kid.

5. Where's 5?
In the toilet, plaing city blocks!! hehe

6. A fact about number 1?
Klutzy, Kool, K-attractive

7. Who is 4 going out with?
Possibly 4 women!! haha no la... faithful guy.

8. What does 1 do for a living?
Soon, she'll be teaching people to walk or injecting some BIG AMERICANS BUTTS

9. Would you live with number 3?
I don't lean that way

10. What do you like about number 2?
" Aiyoh, how? I dunno, Tsk" =)

11. Do you miss number 5?
I'm accurate in my aiming, i hardly miss. *lame-ness?*

12. Would you make out with number 4?
It's official, the person who created this tag loves man to man action

13. What's your opinion on number 2?
Hmmm, thankful and grATEful she's there

14. What's your favourite memory with number 5?
Camp! When she protected me from a giant-angry-man eating (lebih) wasp, which was atttracted to my flowery shorts.

15. What will you do if number 1 and 2 were going out?
Be amazed at a lovely long-distance relationship

16. Ever had a long conversation with 5?
Yup, tons.

17. Have you ever slept at 2's house?
Nope. But I've slapped 2. HAHA

18. Do you hang out with 3 a lot?
Back in those days, yes. Not any longer.

19. Who have you known the longest?
Pj.
20. What will happen if number 1 and 5 have a relationship?
Cannot, Caryn likes rich old men ONLY.

21. How often do you talk to 1?
When we both come 0n-9 inspite of the 11 hour difference in time zone, not that often

22. What about 2?
Reasonable amount.

24. Would you go on a date with number 5?
Why not? She pays though. muahaha

25. Do you dream about number 2?
*lol-ness*

26. What did no.4 did to you that you can never forget?
Some things are best not said in blogs....

27. What have you done for/to 1 that the person never forgets?
Erm... road crossing incident?? haha...gotta ask her

28. What's 3's hobby?
Nerding, drums??

A day of being real

Hey hey! Yesterday I had to go get some past years from HELP COLLEGE and boy was it full of mis-haps! This is usually what happens when PJ and I plan to do something.....

Started we were walking to central to get a cab. Then I kinda realised that it was already 5.30, peak hour to get a cab. Shouldn't have left so late. CJ'S FAULT.Somehow we decided to take a LRT to Bangsar station first, PJ says that was the way to HELP. Then after waiting for a cab in bangsar lrt for like 20 minutes..... he remembered that he didnt pass bangsar LRT the last time and we were going in the wrong direction. PJ'S FAULT.

Somehow we finally managed to get a cab...the driver had a very runny nose and kept asking me whether I was Indian. If he could see my appetite I bet he wouldn't doubt I was Indian. :) Then the driver asked which HELP(there are 2 campuses) Pj pointed to the wrong one. Ended up having to make a u-turn. PJ'S Fault.Finally after making it to the RIGHT HELP, we got the books and decided to go back. Then it started raining heavily. NO ONE'S FAULT.

Pj finally caught a cab to go back....and the driver asked how much are we willing to pay.... see, I can't live without a bargain...so I told PJ to say 5 bucks first. The driver ended up cursing PJ in mandarin...something about asking him to go ****************** his mom. CJ'S fault. Then somehow miraculously a bus came along....stopped it. and PJ had no change!! The bus driver wouldn't move till he gave the change. So I had to give him a very beautifully folded 1 buck that Mei Ling gave me, something that I have been keeping in my wallet. PJ'S Fault.

SO, the bus was moving and when it stopped I asked PJ to get out. TURNS out we weren't close to the destination yet.... so ended up having to walk in the rain. CJ'S FAULT. Then when I got home I realised i forgot to get the Marking Schemes...CJ'S Fault

And now to count the scores.... Pj screws up thrice and Cj screws up 4 times!!! Turns out, was the bigger ass of the day.

But wait there's more....we were in KL Central Guardian store and I wanted to pick out something to buy right in front of the cashier....but i was carrying a bunch of textbooks. So I shoved it to PJ.... and this is what happened

Pj:Do I look like your concubine ar?
Cj-.... Why cant u just carry it?
Pj-It's heavy!
Cj- Argh (Grabs the books and places it on the cashier's counter, now the cashier was staring at us, trying to control her laughter)
Pj-See!
Cj-Dude!! Do we have to make a scene everywhere we go?
Pj-This is what happens!

Then as we were walking back I wrote my name on the vapour that formed on Public Bank's glass....and Pj had to add to it. So now it says.... "CJ is a cat". Then I wrote someone else's name on another glass piece he added to it so now it says " *Someone* is a whore."

Yeap so that's a typical Sneah, Jeremiah outing.

When we came back, Alex tutored us on Chemistry, and we tutored him on how to say Hi to a random person! haha.


But beyond all the happenings of yesterday....PJ and I learnt tpo appreciate Methodist College more as we were walking in Help. Life there, in the words of PJ....seem so animated and un-real. It's like, you live the way you live there cause thats how ur suppose to live there. I hope you get that statement.

Just this all for now guys.... got Chemistry class now!

tata!

Crash

Update time! I'm back in Malacca right now. Wind blowing not-so-well today. Great things happened this week such as...

-Me getting locked out of my bedroom
Ended up having to sleein the hall, with the balcony door opened so I don't get a heatstroke. A couple of t-shirts as my pillow and a towel as my blanket. Woke up with a neck and back ache.

-Got a good talking session by Mr. Micheal
For my irresponsibility. Purely my fault.

Oh well. But this week was a week of fun and learning as well cause...

-I just came back from jamming with Nelly in Church. He's written something new and so have I. We shared the songs. I really miss creating music :( ... lacking it in KL.

-Alex,my 23 year old ex-housemate just came back from Sibu. Yup... Alex called me at 0030 hrs Friday " Eh Calvin, I'm outside the condo, can open for me". I was sleeping but got him in. His hair is longer then Zoo's hair now. Then he was in the college library with me he just got his A-lvl result so i asked him what he got. AABB, that was what he said. That's really good results btw. Then he passed me his result slip......then....."DUDE!!!", i screamed.... "The B's you go are just 3 and 9 marks from an A!!"
Alex eyes opened the size of balloons...snatched the results from me..."Oh man!!! Shit!" haha.... I miss Alex's blurness or Ignorance you may say. Guess there's gonna be more back breaking, break dancing and shuffling around the place now.

-AND THE MOST EXPERIENCING THING THAT HAPPENED THIS WEEK- I was given the opportunity to share in CF with Elizabeth. The title was "In Tune, Acceptance and Respond" It was about accepting and not judging the so-called-weirdos of this world. I was so so stressed at first...but with the committee and Vanessa there for me, they helped. And got some Power Point help form Alithea Darling and Rachel. I stand in awe of my God as He keeps blessing me with the people around me. :)

-I've finally gotten the hang on Minesweeper. Yea! But now i crave for a rubix cube.

I'm going to have to go to HELP this week to get some books. Hopefully I don't loose myself on the way there..


And oooh!! I really want to thank God for giving wisdom to those who created this tool of art...

No... Gillette didn't pay me to say this but seriously....this thing is a must have for everyone. Man of course.

So before I end, I want to share something that someone very "different" told me in a very "different" place at 4. a.m. in the morning. Just a 6 word phrase....

"Joy is the absence of sadness"

Toodles for now...

It's 3.30 a.m.

Ah man i still can's sleep. Oooh i heard this new song it's called Angel by Natasha Bedingfield. Take a listen someday.

I found this video on Tabby's facebook. So I stole it. It's me trying to play Mad Gap. Ended up like I was trying to speak tamil. And see how Daniel laughs. :) Ah a man does weird things when he's bored. Miss d'NA so much la. Saw Micheal in college that day. Wanted to hang but datin was giving a speech in Studying Techniques during pre-u. Not complaining...

8

It's 1 a.m. Monday morning and I'm still not in Kl. Guess I'm missing a couple of classes tomorrow. Don't really have anything to blog about. Heard of the book and movie called "7"?? Just remembered reading it. 7 refers to the 7 'deadly' sins set by the vatican. Well I think there should be 8, an extra one. I've set it in it's original form , Latin.

1) Luxuria (Lust)

2) Gula (Gluttony)

3)Acedia (Sloth)

4)Ira (Wrath)

5)Invidia (Envy)

6)Superbia (Pride)

7)Avatritia (Greed)

8)Combinare tibi with optimus femineus amica (I'm not translating this one)

Cf sleep over was good again. Bonds with the new ones were formed. And to think i always made an assumption Elizabeth was quiet. Regina's last sleep over. Oh well...good times spent. :)






I'm not going to repeat how much i love these guys. But, I love this guys.

It's really blur but my little b'day suprise. Cake smash!

I smile politely at you, you stare politely right on through

I've got a chance to do it twice this week!! Update bloggie i mean. So, I've turned 17 this week.. and boy what a great week it has been. Seriously, God, when you read this I want to say a big thank you for placing me here in Methodist College. I'd rather be nowhere else.

On Monday late night, I was watching Hamlet with Pj on lappie. When clock struck 12...I got birthday messages from those precious ones. :) So moving. And thinking about it now glad that I got to spend yet another year being older with Pj though all we've been through last year.In college on Tuesday was pretty cool too. Regina sang me the birthday song, on the top of her lungs from the other side of the corridor. Completely embarrassed herself (and Regina if you read this, (I KNOW YOU WILL), it was well worth it). Then Cf had a meeting. Just before the meeting started Rachel announced it was my birthday. Then Alithea came marching in with a slice of cake with a cute little candle on it. Blew the candle, then Chip and David redecorated my face with the cake. Then at night pula went out dinner with Chelle, Zoo and Pj. Eat until can explode man.

The beautiful cake of Cf after being smashed on my beautiful face :)

Then Wednesday came, like any other day. After Maths had one hour free period. So I went to the library...then suddenly Ian and Jon came to me.

Ian:Eh, CJ, Shasha and Kesh are fighting downstairs!!

Me:What.....Where??

Ian:In the canteen,I just got a phone call. Let's go, fast!

Me: Dude, I think we should just leave them alone

Ian:No, lets go down, I'm going now

So, due to the overwhelming pressure I followed... when I reached the canteen....pretty much everyone from Gamma was there...suddenly Happy Birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday to CJ, happy birthday to you. I was stunned to the bone, heart still beating fast in worry of watching Shasha beating Kesh up. But................. Can cry man. So touched. Effort was made. Screw ups like me don't expect efforts to be made. The cake was super yummy. Managed to feed everyone and more. And obviously, Jas had to redecorate my face AGAIN with the cake!

After the surprise, lala-giler posers!!

I'm chatting with my cousin Nick now. Miss that guy la. He too just turned a year older. My mom and Dad too. Jeremiah September Babies. Ooooh yea!! Cf sleepover tomorrow. I'm exited.

Clumsy me broke a couple of eggs and didn't know how to clean in....so i took pictures and asked Jas how to clean it instead!!

He continues to keep me close to Him. When i stumble, He catches me. When I wouldn't listen He'll come knocking. I'm still in awe. I love him cause He first loved the pain I was.

You stood before my failure
Carried the Cross for my shame
My sin weighed upon Your shoulders
My soul now to stand

That's all I've got to say now. Love you guys la... Love LOVE LOVE LOVE. =)

Some of the gifts I got. A poem on the awesomeness of creation, a chain that screams unique, a bracelet that clings close to me.

Anora's work of art. It's called "The Statue Of Liberty Reaching Out"

Today is a week since my last post. I went home yesterday, expecting her to come running at me, barking madly, craving for a belly rub....instead this is what i saw.

See, she just got spayed. ARGH! My dad sent her to the vet on Tuesday apparently. And i didn't know till yesterday. I mean seriously.... why spay a domesticated dog??? It's really very pissing off to see Blackie so sick and in pain. She can't even stand properly. And not to mention that really ugly stitch by her side where her ONCE FUNCTIONAL organs were. SAD SAD.

Ok, now that I'm done ranting to bloggie I feel much better. Ooooh and I found out that Blackie is actually around 4 years old from the Vet. Kinda old huh but another good 10 years to be spent with her.

So. the happenings this week. Daniel left for Scotland to study Medicine. He spent his last few days in Malaysia in here with his dad. And on Wednesday, when he had to leave it was just dreadful. I could see a tear in his eye as well. He left me a gift in my room. Mannn....Daniel knew me like a brother would. Staying in the same apartment with him for 6 months was good. He's a little insane (throwing water balloons filled with concentrated ammonia from the 15 floor) but boy was he hard working. He got a JPA and Shell scholarship. Rejected both. haha. I bet he's having fun in Aberdeen now...he told me he already has a friend there. A pretty girl from Manchester. Good for him. :) Cant wait to see him as a doctor. He'll probably discover a way to cure AIDS or smtg. Prusho left for the UK as well....but for Kent. Actuarial Science. I remember that many looked down on him saying he'd never make the grades. TO THOSE PEOPLE: His flight was 9 pm last night.

Another thing this week, Reena's party. It was pretty fun. The girls were actually pretty good at planning especially for such a short period notice. One of the girls sang her a song. It could move anyone to tears. ooh and there was this really big cake one of her friends surprised her with. It was a huge number 18 shaped cake. And it was yummy. Jo came back for the party, it was nice catching up with her. She hasn't changed a bit. =)

Cf new committee came in this week as well. Now we have Kah Yun, Jessica, Elizabeth, Steven and Zoo on the committee. Cant wait for sleep over this weekend. Regina and Wen Shan retired. IT'S SO SAD. And besides I have not gotten back at Regina. Miss Melalyn shared for the last CF. She reminds me of Annete from D'NA in a lot of ways. Makes us think on the way we look at things.

(Guess which one I live at?)

That's all for now.

So when hard times have found you
And your fears surround you
Wrap my love around you, You’re never alone.