Alithea snoring thanks to the olympics.So suppose to update bloggie a week ago….but this and that came up. It’s the holidays now (just a week long break) and I’m back in Malacca. It’s funny how when ever I’m in KL I’d crave home, the beach, TV and the Internet. And when I’m back here I’d crave the frens, food, freedom in KL. Seriously, humans were born with a hole in their hearts. Unnecessary greeds and cravings. Tsk tsk.
Me like today’s date, 09-09-08. I’m still very much a noob with blogspot. This is my 5th post!!! Bangga betul sial…. Longest I’ve gone so far. Oh, and according to Regina, almost everyone in college has a blog. I’m so kuno man. So the big events since last post, Rayna’s surprise party, Ian’s “surprise” party and of course ………… drum roll please CF CAMP ’08!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh……. Awesome man. Awesome awesome awesome awesome. Sorry can’t contain it. I’m yet to get the pictures from camp, think I can only get it when school starts. Oops I mean when COLLEGE starts. Anyway, make sure you come back to read that post. Awesome stories to tell.
God moves, He’s so real, He’s Faithful, He can move mountains.
I just watched Oprah this morning (big fan of Oprah..no matter what you may say about that), today’s episode was about a bunch of depressed woman, who feel empty inside. And through the show they were like crying, they were angry and unsatisfied and they were not sure why. And as I watched them, I just wished I could reach in the TV and talk to them. Cause, I’ve been there, and boy have I been there BAD.
I’m glad that I’ve changed, and this time not for a person, not even for myself. God plans all our lives, whether you believe in him or not. Often we screw up and rebel. And that’s exactly what I did. Looking back now, all I can do is be in awe in the way He’s worked in my life. The last 2 months of my life has been great, I feel more purposeful now.
J&J
The way the Lord has put me in Methodist College and meeting all this people is just great. The CF Committee definitely has a large roll to play. I remember, some time in February when David came to me and asked me whether I’d like to be in the committee, as the Chapel worship coordinator, I heartily agreed. Not knowing what I was in for. At first I hardly knew anyone in the committee except Caryn and Chee Yip. The other worship coordinator was Melanie, and I was like “Great, I’ve got to work with a 10A bimbo”. Gosh never knew how wrong I was. I seriously had prejudice issues. I was dreading the first committee sleep over. But was it great or what?? Bonds were formed, especially with the seniors, Regina, Alithea, David, Wen Shan, and the Super seniors- Wee Kiat and Benjamin. They were really cool. Way more to them than what meets the eye. I slept in the student lounge that night….MOSQUITOES BY THE MILLIONS!!! And the next morning I woke up with the terrible cramp and David did something to my leg and it was gone. That day I learned how to stop a cramp. Very useful.
Guess who's hand is Regina holding? ;)
That time, life didn’t change for me though I was in the committee. Of course I did my work, attended meetings regularly, made sure chapel every morning ran smoothly, even led worship a couple of times. BUT, the big question was…. Did I live life God’s way?? As much as I tried to hide it, sadly I wasn’t. And some people knew. I can still recollect when I would do something nasty and Chip would say “Calvin, ur in the CF committee, set an example” with a smile. But that was enough said, chip was being honest. I was spoiling the name of the CF. I knew that for a fact, but continued my screwed up life. I can’t state here THE THINGS I DID. Cause I just cant, and am so very regretful of it. I wasn’t only spoiling my life in doing this wrongs, but spoiling the value of life of others. But I just couldn’t stop, and soon I just felt very depressed. Life seemed "un-purposeful".I felt so empty.I filled that hole in my heart with every junk I could think of, to some people I was living “The Life” but honestly was I even living Life?
Little Chip fast asleep in a very weird position-Candid
We had yet another CF Committee sleepover this semester. And that’s where THINGS HAPPENED. Before the meeting started, all of us were just talking… sharing about that day. Then this person in the committee started sharing, I can’t name this person so I’ll call this person Milo. Pure randomness in the names, bare with me. Milo was saying how he was trying to live God’s way but doesn’t feel like he is.Then this other person whom I will call Twelve started sharing about his family. On how hard it is to even go to church because his parents are very Anti-Christians. Then a third person, broke into tears and said how he feels he isn’t good enough. Milo too didn’t feel good enough. And honestly speaking, I felt, all three Milo, Twelve and the third person had a heart for God. And there they were feeling that they weren’t doing enough. And Twelve had an unshakeable faith through all the hardships he’s going through. And there I was listening to all three of them. I felt angry cause, I wasn’t suppose to be at that meeting, cause I’m not like this people. My heart does not seek after God’s heart. I felt like crap too cause there I was, with supportive God-loving parents and I didn’t appreciate it. And that was the day when I decided to just stop doing all the nasty nasty things. Then maybe I’d have a worth in the committee.
A week from that day, I gave my heart to God. He has been stirring it up in my heart all the while. It was the end of July. I had so much joy in me. And I remember, on that Sunday, I went to the Holy Trinity church in Jalan Gasing, and just so happened the sermon was about trusting God, though you don’t know what his plans are for you. Jeremiah 33:3: Call unto me and I will show you great and mighty things which you know not of. That’s our family verse, and it shows God’s father figure. If we just take that step of faith, and surrender our burdens and talents to Him, He’ll take over from there. Here’s a very popular verse that steals my heart. Jeremiah 29:11:” For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.” I’m not saying life would be so much easier when you live it God’s way. Of course the evil one would not want you to keep living life God’s way and will try to bring you down in every way. But BuT BUT GOD IS FAITHFUL!!! He’s there to pick you up when you fall. All you gotta do is seek Him. Ok I’m being super long winded…. What I’m trying to say here is, God gave salvation to this screw up-ME. He’s knocking on your door too, learn to surrender,seriously what are you going to loose?. I have found grace. And God has been helping me since, blessing me with this precious people in the committee I really want to thank…
David Dell- First things first, In spite of all the teases I give you, I respect your authority as the President, sorry for being a pain. I’ve always looked up to your sincerity in doing His will. Love your patience man (that’s why I enjoy testing it)
Regina-It was nice to bond with you in camp. Never knew you liked playing City Blocks on your phone in the toilet. ;) Thanks for being a mentor and thanks for teaching me prayer.
Alithea- I didn’t know you were a serious case OCD. Haha…still your creativeness is beyond compare. Art for God =)
Wen Shan- Your words in meetings really make us think and question. Gives us a different point of view on things.
Chip- The small guy with a Big heart for God. Thank you for all that helping out with worship. Ur awesome to talk to and work with.
Caryn Cow- ah. My first friend in college. Thank you for keeping an eye out for me in class and meetings. Though you have left us to be with the Americans =( we miss you here. Thanks for the company, Really.
Rachel- Honestly, I’ve always feared you. But you being stern in meeting really helped a lot…Glad to have you as our new vice!
Mel bell- My “not-so-bimbo” worship coordinator. A heart full of appreciations for the words and listening ear. And it was nice to see you walking like a drunkard during sleep over. We had our laughs. =) You’ve been such a thoughtful friend who never fails to charm me.
Wen Jo- Yes our little one…always so questioning. Your strong faith, it’s been consoling.
Li Sia- Sad that you too had to leave. But behind you quiet personality; it was nice to see a person with desire to know God more.
So I’ll stop this really long post here. Congrats to you if you made it till here!! *Standing Ovation*
And to My Heavenly Father- A thousand times I’ve failed, still your mercy remains. Should I stumble again, I am caught in your grace. Everlasting, your light will shine when all else fades. Thank you Abba.
Me like today’s date, 09-09-08. I’m still very much a noob with blogspot. This is my 5th post!!! Bangga betul sial…. Longest I’ve gone so far. Oh, and according to Regina, almost everyone in college has a blog. I’m so kuno man. So the big events since last post, Rayna’s surprise party, Ian’s “surprise” party and of course ………… drum roll please CF CAMP ’08!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Wahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh……. Awesome man. Awesome awesome awesome awesome. Sorry can’t contain it. I’m yet to get the pictures from camp, think I can only get it when school starts. Oops I mean when COLLEGE starts. Anyway, make sure you come back to read that post. Awesome stories to tell.
God moves, He’s so real, He’s Faithful, He can move mountains.
I just watched Oprah this morning (big fan of Oprah..no matter what you may say about that), today’s episode was about a bunch of depressed woman, who feel empty inside. And through the show they were like crying, they were angry and unsatisfied and they were not sure why. And as I watched them, I just wished I could reach in the TV and talk to them. Cause, I’ve been there, and boy have I been there BAD.
I’m glad that I’ve changed, and this time not for a person, not even for myself. God plans all our lives, whether you believe in him or not. Often we screw up and rebel. And that’s exactly what I did. Looking back now, all I can do is be in awe in the way He’s worked in my life. The last 2 months of my life has been great, I feel more purposeful now.
J&JThe way the Lord has put me in Methodist College and meeting all this people is just great. The CF Committee definitely has a large roll to play. I remember, some time in February when David came to me and asked me whether I’d like to be in the committee, as the Chapel worship coordinator, I heartily agreed. Not knowing what I was in for. At first I hardly knew anyone in the committee except Caryn and Chee Yip. The other worship coordinator was Melanie, and I was like “Great, I’ve got to work with a 10A bimbo”. Gosh never knew how wrong I was. I seriously had prejudice issues. I was dreading the first committee sleep over. But was it great or what?? Bonds were formed, especially with the seniors, Regina, Alithea, David, Wen Shan, and the Super seniors- Wee Kiat and Benjamin. They were really cool. Way more to them than what meets the eye. I slept in the student lounge that night….MOSQUITOES BY THE MILLIONS!!! And the next morning I woke up with the terrible cramp and David did something to my leg and it was gone. That day I learned how to stop a cramp. Very useful.
Guess who's hand is Regina holding? ;)That time, life didn’t change for me though I was in the committee. Of course I did my work, attended meetings regularly, made sure chapel every morning ran smoothly, even led worship a couple of times. BUT, the big question was…. Did I live life God’s way?? As much as I tried to hide it, sadly I wasn’t. And some people knew. I can still recollect when I would do something nasty and Chip would say “Calvin, ur in the CF committee, set an example” with a smile. But that was enough said, chip was being honest. I was spoiling the name of the CF. I knew that for a fact, but continued my screwed up life. I can’t state here THE THINGS I DID. Cause I just cant, and am so very regretful of it. I wasn’t only spoiling my life in doing this wrongs, but spoiling the value of life of others. But I just couldn’t stop, and soon I just felt very depressed. Life seemed "un-purposeful".I felt so empty.I filled that hole in my heart with every junk I could think of, to some people I was living “The Life” but honestly was I even living Life?
Little Chip fast asleep in a very weird position-CandidWe had yet another CF Committee sleepover this semester. And that’s where THINGS HAPPENED. Before the meeting started, all of us were just talking… sharing about that day. Then this person in the committee started sharing, I can’t name this person so I’ll call this person Milo. Pure randomness in the names, bare with me. Milo was saying how he was trying to live God’s way but doesn’t feel like he is.Then this other person whom I will call Twelve started sharing about his family. On how hard it is to even go to church because his parents are very Anti-Christians. Then a third person, broke into tears and said how he feels he isn’t good enough. Milo too didn’t feel good enough. And honestly speaking, I felt, all three Milo, Twelve and the third person had a heart for God. And there they were feeling that they weren’t doing enough. And Twelve had an unshakeable faith through all the hardships he’s going through. And there I was listening to all three of them. I felt angry cause, I wasn’t suppose to be at that meeting, cause I’m not like this people. My heart does not seek after God’s heart. I felt like crap too cause there I was, with supportive God-loving parents and I didn’t appreciate it. And that was the day when I decided to just stop doing all the nasty nasty things. Then maybe I’d have a worth in the committee.
A week from that day, I gave my heart to God. He has been stirring it up in my heart all the while. It was the end of July. I had so much joy in me. And I remember, on that Sunday, I went to the Holy Trinity church in Jalan Gasing, and just so happened the sermon was about trusting God, though you don’t know what his plans are for you. Jeremiah 33:3: Call unto me and I will show you great and mighty things which you know not of. That’s our family verse, and it shows God’s father figure. If we just take that step of faith, and surrender our burdens and talents to Him, He’ll take over from there. Here’s a very popular verse that steals my heart. Jeremiah 29:11:” For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.” I’m not saying life would be so much easier when you live it God’s way. Of course the evil one would not want you to keep living life God’s way and will try to bring you down in every way. But BuT BUT GOD IS FAITHFUL!!! He’s there to pick you up when you fall. All you gotta do is seek Him. Ok I’m being super long winded…. What I’m trying to say here is, God gave salvation to this screw up-ME. He’s knocking on your door too, learn to surrender,seriously what are you going to loose?. I have found grace. And God has been helping me since, blessing me with this precious people in the committee I really want to thank…
David Dell- First things first, In spite of all the teases I give you, I respect your authority as the President, sorry for being a pain. I’ve always looked up to your sincerity in doing His will. Love your patience man (that’s why I enjoy testing it)
Regina-It was nice to bond with you in camp. Never knew you liked playing City Blocks on your phone in the toilet. ;) Thanks for being a mentor and thanks for teaching me prayer.
Alithea- I didn’t know you were a serious case OCD. Haha…still your creativeness is beyond compare. Art for God =)
Wen Shan- Your words in meetings really make us think and question. Gives us a different point of view on things.
Chip- The small guy with a Big heart for God. Thank you for all that helping out with worship. Ur awesome to talk to and work with.
Caryn Cow- ah. My first friend in college. Thank you for keeping an eye out for me in class and meetings. Though you have left us to be with the Americans =( we miss you here. Thanks for the company, Really.
Rachel- Honestly, I’ve always feared you. But you being stern in meeting really helped a lot…Glad to have you as our new vice!
Mel bell- My “not-so-bimbo” worship coordinator. A heart full of appreciations for the words and listening ear. And it was nice to see you walking like a drunkard during sleep over. We had our laughs. =) You’ve been such a thoughtful friend who never fails to charm me.
Wen Jo- Yes our little one…always so questioning. Your strong faith, it’s been consoling.
Li Sia- Sad that you too had to leave. But behind you quiet personality; it was nice to see a person with desire to know God more.
So I’ll stop this really long post here. Congrats to you if you made it till here!! *Standing Ovation*
And to My Heavenly Father- A thousand times I’ve failed, still your mercy remains. Should I stumble again, I am caught in your grace. Everlasting, your light will shine when all else fades. Thank you Abba.
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